... chew gum!
Here's my current favorite Thinspo - it's Ballet themed.
And a little Japanese lesson for you... "kirei desu ne" means... "she's beautiful".
Friday, June 3, 2011
Update
Hey!
I updated my weight goals ---> (see the side bar on the right)
I have a new weight loss idea. Again... I know. My "under 1000 calories" trick was working, but I felt dizzy and awful and my concentration was nil. So for the entire month of June, my plan is....
1. Acceptable calorie range is 800-1200.
2. Exercise or some form of activity required daily (even just 5 minutes counts).
3. Record weight, calories, activities, and brief food log daily (when able).
It's June 3rd today, so I'm on Day Three. Funny how that works!
June 1 - 189.8 lbs / 1045 cals / Lifted 10-lb weights sporadically while watching tv.
June 2 - 188.0 lbs / 1250 cals / Moved to music for 10+ minutes
June 3 - 187.2 lbs / ~1400 cals / Lifted 10-lb weights while watching tv
I updated my weight goals ---> (see the side bar on the right)
I have a new weight loss idea. Again... I know. My "under 1000 calories" trick was working, but I felt dizzy and awful and my concentration was nil. So for the entire month of June, my plan is....
1. Acceptable calorie range is 800-1200.
2. Exercise or some form of activity required daily (even just 5 minutes counts).
3. Record weight, calories, activities, and brief food log daily (when able).
It's June 3rd today, so I'm on Day Three. Funny how that works!
June 1 - 189.8 lbs / 1045 cals / Lifted 10-lb weights sporadically while watching tv.
June 2 - 188.0 lbs / 1250 cals / Moved to music for 10+ minutes
June 3 - 187.2 lbs / ~1400 cals / Lifted 10-lb weights while watching tv
20 Calories or Less
This ridiculous little list is organized as quantity/food name/(calories).This is what happens when I have free time....
Foods for 20 calories or less:
Candy:
1 Junior Mint (10)
1 Mike and Ike (6)
1 Life Saver (11)
1 Sugar Free Life Saver (7.5)
1 Sugar Free Popsicle (usually 15)
3 Altoid mints (10)
1 Candy Corn (7)
1 Gum Drop (15)
1 Gummy Worm (10)
1 Hard Candy (usually 20)
1 Jelly Belly (4)
1 Lemonhead (5)
1 Red Vine (20)
1 Creme Saver (20)
1 Milk Chocolate M&M (5)
1 Mento (10)
1 Milk Dud (13)
1 Tic Tac (2)
1 Starburst (20)
Fruit:
1 (1 oz., small) Apricot (17)
20 Blueberries (15)
1 oz. Cantaloupe (10)
4 Sweet Cherries (15)
1 Raspberry (1)
6 medium or 3 large Strawberries (20)
1 (3 oz., small) Tomato (15)
1 Grape Tomato (2)
5 Watermelon balls (18)
1 Dried Apple Ring (16)
1 medium Prune (16)
1 Maraschino Cherry (8)
Vegetable:
3 medium spears Asparagus (10)
1/2 c. cooked Bamboo Shoots (7)
1 four-inch Green Bean (2)
2 Brussels Sprouts (15)
1 c. shredded Cabbage (15)
3 Baby Carrots (10)
4 thin sticks Celery (5)
1/3 c. cooked Collards (17)
1/3 of a Cucumber (15)
1 large raw Mushroom (5)
1/2 Bell Pepper (15)
Other:
1 Large Black or Green Olive (6)
1 small, plain Wafer Cone (20)
1 Tbsp. or packet Ketchup (15)
1 Dill Pickle Spear (5 or less)
1 Fat-free Slice Bologna (20)
1 Potato Chip (8 on average)
1 two-inch Pretzel Stick (6)
1 tsp. Jelly (15-18)
1 tsp. Sugar Free Jelly (4-8)
Coughdrops (0-15; 40 each for ones with honey)
1 French Fry (usually 10)
1 Tbsp. Whipped Cream (10)
Foods for 20 calories or less:
Candy:
1 Junior Mint (10)
1 Mike and Ike (6)
1 Life Saver (11)
1 Sugar Free Life Saver (7.5)
1 Sugar Free Popsicle (usually 15)
3 Altoid mints (10)
1 Candy Corn (7)
1 Gum Drop (15)
1 Gummy Worm (10)
1 Hard Candy (usually 20)
1 Jelly Belly (4)
1 Lemonhead (5)
1 Red Vine (20)
1 Creme Saver (20)
1 Milk Chocolate M&M (5)
1 Mento (10)
1 Milk Dud (13)
1 Tic Tac (2)
1 Starburst (20)
Fruit:
1 (1 oz., small) Apricot (17)
20 Blueberries (15)
1 oz. Cantaloupe (10)
4 Sweet Cherries (15)
1 Raspberry (1)
6 medium or 3 large Strawberries (20)
1 (3 oz., small) Tomato (15)
1 Grape Tomato (2)
5 Watermelon balls (18)
1 Dried Apple Ring (16)
1 medium Prune (16)
1 Maraschino Cherry (8)
Vegetable:
3 medium spears Asparagus (10)
1/2 c. cooked Bamboo Shoots (7)
1 four-inch Green Bean (2)
2 Brussels Sprouts (15)
1 c. shredded Cabbage (15)
3 Baby Carrots (10)
4 thin sticks Celery (5)
1/3 c. cooked Collards (17)
1/3 of a Cucumber (15)
1 large raw Mushroom (5)
1/2 Bell Pepper (15)
Other:
1 Large Black or Green Olive (6)
1 small, plain Wafer Cone (20)
1 Tbsp. or packet Ketchup (15)
1 Dill Pickle Spear (5 or less)
1 Fat-free Slice Bologna (20)
1 Potato Chip (8 on average)
1 two-inch Pretzel Stick (6)
1 tsp. Jelly (15-18)
1 tsp. Sugar Free Jelly (4-8)
Coughdrops (0-15; 40 each for ones with honey)
1 French Fry (usually 10)
1 Tbsp. Whipped Cream (10)
Wednesday, May 25, 2011
update & low-cal opinions
Yesterday... My expected calories was 555, finished the day at 560. Sweet, right? Had 84 oz. of liquids also - which probably sparked my water PSA... realized I get fooled by "water weight fears" too much, yet I eat fewer real calories when hydrated.
Today... weighed in at 187.2 (down 1.8 from yesterday). Consumed 900 calories even. And took measurements this morning in inches... waist 39 / hip 44 / bust 39. Well... at least it's better than it was...
So my current thing is an easy "under 1000 calories" goal. I'm really liking it. It's not stressful, I generally succeed, and I've had some 600-800 calorie days. It's really manageable. I can eat 200 calories in the morning, an optional 200-300 late afternoon, and up to a 500 dinner, and end up with 1000 max, and very easily less. Also tho it might be too early to say, my metabolism hasn't stalled out yet. And, tho I get that good powerful hunger, it's not so bad that I'm finding myself stuffing crackers in my face at three in the morning. Having a loose 1000 max rule allows major control.
I've also let up on the exercise ideas. I've never been a great athlete. I'm satisfied walking extra during the day and lifting weights...often in bed! I know, that sounds horridly lazy, but... I am! I'm a lazy fatso, so for me, it's perfectly acceptable! :)
So here's the puzzler... I'm coming up on some alone-time (3 days, Sat-Mon). So I want to stretch myself. I've had seven under 1000 days. I don't think I could fast, because it makes me goofy, and I do need to focus. My lowest calorie day was yesterday at 560... I think I'll try for 500 a day max, just for the three days - then return to the 1000. It's weird timing, but seems too good an opportunity to pass up. Any thoughts?
Today... weighed in at 187.2 (down 1.8 from yesterday). Consumed 900 calories even. And took measurements this morning in inches... waist 39 / hip 44 / bust 39. Well... at least it's better than it was...
So my current thing is an easy "under 1000 calories" goal. I'm really liking it. It's not stressful, I generally succeed, and I've had some 600-800 calorie days. It's really manageable. I can eat 200 calories in the morning, an optional 200-300 late afternoon, and up to a 500 dinner, and end up with 1000 max, and very easily less. Also tho it might be too early to say, my metabolism hasn't stalled out yet. And, tho I get that good powerful hunger, it's not so bad that I'm finding myself stuffing crackers in my face at three in the morning. Having a loose 1000 max rule allows major control.
I've also let up on the exercise ideas. I've never been a great athlete. I'm satisfied walking extra during the day and lifting weights...often in bed! I know, that sounds horridly lazy, but... I am! I'm a lazy fatso, so for me, it's perfectly acceptable! :)
So here's the puzzler... I'm coming up on some alone-time (3 days, Sat-Mon). So I want to stretch myself. I've had seven under 1000 days. I don't think I could fast, because it makes me goofy, and I do need to focus. My lowest calorie day was yesterday at 560... I think I'll try for 500 a day max, just for the three days - then return to the 1000. It's weird timing, but seems too good an opportunity to pass up. Any thoughts?
Tuesday, May 24, 2011
new guidelines/goals & water
Yesterday.... 5/23: 191 lbs, 648 calories, some arm exercises with 10-lb weights.
Today: 189 lbs this morning. At 415 calories so far, and I'm expecting 555 total for today, assuming I don't mess up. I've got a group to go to and there is always loads of tempting finger foods. "Just one?"
My tentative goal for the end of May, which I'm still on track for despite some screw ups is... 186.2 lbs. I know, very...precise. (It's an average 0.4 lb loss per day).
Here's the current guidelines I've set for myself:
- Maintain less than 1000 calories consumed per day.
- Exercise when able. Weights are easy to do.
- Faster loss = more Summer glam
- Write down weights, calories when able.
- Don't be afraid to go to bed hungry.
(**Public Service Announcement**) Now... any of ya'll reading this - the weather is getting warmer, dehydration is no joke. The easiest way to screw up your body (and get found out) is to get sick or faint from dehydration. Water weight doesn't count. Stay equally hydrated day-to-day and drinking won't affect the number on the scale. True weight loss is from fat, not from water.
Stay happy.
Samantha
Today: 189 lbs this morning. At 415 calories so far, and I'm expecting 555 total for today, assuming I don't mess up. I've got a group to go to and there is always loads of tempting finger foods. "Just one?"
My tentative goal for the end of May, which I'm still on track for despite some screw ups is... 186.2 lbs. I know, very...precise. (It's an average 0.4 lb loss per day).
Here's the current guidelines I've set for myself:
- Maintain less than 1000 calories consumed per day.
- Exercise when able. Weights are easy to do.
- Faster loss = more Summer glam
- Write down weights, calories when able.
- Don't be afraid to go to bed hungry.
(**Public Service Announcement**) Now... any of ya'll reading this - the weather is getting warmer, dehydration is no joke. The easiest way to screw up your body (and get found out) is to get sick or faint from dehydration. Water weight doesn't count. Stay equally hydrated day-to-day and drinking won't affect the number on the scale. True weight loss is from fat, not from water.
Stay happy.
Samantha
Monday, May 23, 2011
long time no write
Ok... so it's been a long time, right?
Lotta ups, lotta downs, in every way imaginable.
In the last couple weeks I've been doing this thing again.
Here's deal (or at least what I have written down):
Day 0- 194 lbs, ? cals, 5 mile walk
Day 1- 878 cals, 2 hrs cleaning
Day 2- 191.4 lbs, 1001 cals
Day 3- 191 lbs, 945 cals
Day 4- 189.8 lbs, 883 cals, 1.5 hrs lite cleaning
Day 5 FAIL- 189.6 lbs, 2688 cals, slept all day NOT hungry...
Round 2:
Day 1 FAIL- 190.6 lbs, 1355 cals
Round 3:
Day 1- today
So the goal is to stay under 1000 calories, if I go like 10 over, that's okay - but any more and I have to start over. I'm good at competing with myself... and I want consecutive wins! So far Round 1, my 4 day streak is my best. Exercise doesn't matter at this point.
This morning I was 191 lbs. So far today I have had...
1 mint coffee with splenda - 10 cals (I count 8 oz. coffee as 5 cals)
1 coffee with splenda and 1/4 c. plain soymilk - 33 cals
So 43 cals at 5pm.
I have had 32 oz. of zero calorie flavored water also.
I'll let ya know how it totals tonight.
(I get online when I can - I often post on some of your blogs as "anonymous" which I don't like doing, but logging on at all, both for my blog and to comment is risky... that's why I don't post as much as I'd like.)
Lotta ups, lotta downs, in every way imaginable.
In the last couple weeks I've been doing this thing again.
Here's deal (or at least what I have written down):
Day 0- 194 lbs, ? cals, 5 mile walk
Day 1- 878 cals, 2 hrs cleaning
Day 2- 191.4 lbs, 1001 cals
Day 3- 191 lbs, 945 cals
Day 4- 189.8 lbs, 883 cals, 1.5 hrs lite cleaning
Day 5 FAIL- 189.6 lbs, 2688 cals, slept all day NOT hungry...
Round 2:
Day 1 FAIL- 190.6 lbs, 1355 cals
Round 3:
Day 1- today
So the goal is to stay under 1000 calories, if I go like 10 over, that's okay - but any more and I have to start over. I'm good at competing with myself... and I want consecutive wins! So far Round 1, my 4 day streak is my best. Exercise doesn't matter at this point.
This morning I was 191 lbs. So far today I have had...
1 mint coffee with splenda - 10 cals (I count 8 oz. coffee as 5 cals)
1 coffee with splenda and 1/4 c. plain soymilk - 33 cals
So 43 cals at 5pm.
I have had 32 oz. of zero calorie flavored water also.
I'll let ya know how it totals tonight.
(I get online when I can - I often post on some of your blogs as "anonymous" which I don't like doing, but logging on at all, both for my blog and to comment is risky... that's why I don't post as much as I'd like.)
Saturday, April 9, 2011
happy dance
I'm under 195!
Which may seem awfully high to most of you, but it's about a 30-lb loss for me.
Which may seem awfully high to most of you, but it's about a 30-lb loss for me.
some tips
For cravings:
1. Keep an index card or slip of paper with you at all times. When you avoid a food craving, put a check mark on the card. Can also get a prize at x number of checks. Wanting to eat something you shouldn't? See how many (or few) checks you have.
2. Get a jar, like an old pickle jar. If you eat something with a wrapper (candy, gum, food, even drink mixes and sugar substitute packets) put the wrapper in the jar. Empty the jar weekly. This way at any one point, you can see all the processed foods you've eaten in that week.
For sleep:
1. Don't take a hot bath right before bed - higher body temp makes it harder to fall asleep.
2. Stretch a little - like gentle yoga moves - before bed.
3. Turn off the computer, TV.
4. Cut down on the caffeine/alcohol - no caf after 4pm is good usually.
5. Eat a little protein and some carbs before bed. example: banana & cottage cheese or yogurt, a graham cracker with peanut butter. A bite of food is better than no sleep.
For exercise:
1. 30 minutes of walking = three 10-minute walks. Three 10-minute sprints burns more cals than one 30 minute walk at consistent pace.
2. Lift weights if you have them, or do body weight exercise like pushups, planks, yoga moves, lunges, jump rope, or dancing.
For food:
1. Breakfast is the most important meal of the day because it jumpstarts your metabolism. For good breakfasts light on calories...
1 clementine (35 cal) good for vitamin C and fiber, 1 slice wheat toast with 1 tsp peanut butter (~95 cal), 6 oz. skim milk or soy milk (~70 cal) = 200 cal.
1/3 cup oatmeal cooked with water (100 cal), 1/2 c. milk or soy milk (50 cal), 3 large strawberries or 25 blueberries (20 cal) = 170 cal. Fiber in oats and protein in milk keeps me full for at least 4 hours. If I get binge-y, this is what I go for - hard to binge on oats, ya know?
1. Keep an index card or slip of paper with you at all times. When you avoid a food craving, put a check mark on the card. Can also get a prize at x number of checks. Wanting to eat something you shouldn't? See how many (or few) checks you have.
2. Get a jar, like an old pickle jar. If you eat something with a wrapper (candy, gum, food, even drink mixes and sugar substitute packets) put the wrapper in the jar. Empty the jar weekly. This way at any one point, you can see all the processed foods you've eaten in that week.
For sleep:
1. Don't take a hot bath right before bed - higher body temp makes it harder to fall asleep.
2. Stretch a little - like gentle yoga moves - before bed.
3. Turn off the computer, TV.
4. Cut down on the caffeine/alcohol - no caf after 4pm is good usually.
5. Eat a little protein and some carbs before bed. example: banana & cottage cheese or yogurt, a graham cracker with peanut butter. A bite of food is better than no sleep.
For exercise:
1. 30 minutes of walking = three 10-minute walks. Three 10-minute sprints burns more cals than one 30 minute walk at consistent pace.
2. Lift weights if you have them, or do body weight exercise like pushups, planks, yoga moves, lunges, jump rope, or dancing.
For food:
1. Breakfast is the most important meal of the day because it jumpstarts your metabolism. For good breakfasts light on calories...
1 clementine (35 cal) good for vitamin C and fiber, 1 slice wheat toast with 1 tsp peanut butter (~95 cal), 6 oz. skim milk or soy milk (~70 cal) = 200 cal.
1/3 cup oatmeal cooked with water (100 cal), 1/2 c. milk or soy milk (50 cal), 3 large strawberries or 25 blueberries (20 cal) = 170 cal. Fiber in oats and protein in milk keeps me full for at least 4 hours. If I get binge-y, this is what I go for - hard to binge on oats, ya know?
Friday, April 1, 2011
there's nothing inside her... as if.
Thanks for the last batch of comments. It's been a while, hasn't it?
Let's jump right in...
calories for friday:
breakfast- oats & soymilk & sugar - 450
lunch- gum x2 - 10
dinner- veg burger & fries & diet pop - 660
total: 1120 cals
Perfect. Now just do it again with less fat and sugar.
My goal: between 1000-1400 cals/day
+ exercise
fat girl + beach = oxymoron
Let's have an oxymoron-free summer!
My current favorite random youtube video...
Let's jump right in...
calories for friday:
breakfast- oats & soymilk & sugar - 450
lunch- gum x2 - 10
dinner- veg burger & fries & diet pop - 660
total: 1120 cals
Perfect. Now just do it again with less fat and sugar.
My goal: between 1000-1400 cals/day
+ exercise
fat girl + beach = oxymoron
Let's have an oxymoron-free summer!
My current favorite random youtube video...
Thursday, February 3, 2011
whoops
So....random day......
accidentally told my therapist about my "strange eating" habits.... T got a bit stressed out... T happens to be eating disorder specialist in addition to other things...we've discussed ED type things before.....but I've always denied. then today i bring it up. now its like... why the hell did i do that?!? whoops...
so recently... blacked out for like 10 mins and then showered and lost a couple handfuls of hair.
and now... cause i blabbed, I'm to keep a food log and bring it in. I told T... I said "I'll lie on it" and T just said "don't".
so I wrote down my foods and cals for the day and it was a high number (1550 cals) and I got a little freakish and just took laxs for the 1st time in a long time.
so now its like... aw crap.
Literally, crap.
accidentally told my therapist about my "strange eating" habits.... T got a bit stressed out... T happens to be eating disorder specialist in addition to other things...we've discussed ED type things before.....but I've always denied. then today i bring it up. now its like... why the hell did i do that?!? whoops...
so recently... blacked out for like 10 mins and then showered and lost a couple handfuls of hair.
and now... cause i blabbed, I'm to keep a food log and bring it in. I told T... I said "I'll lie on it" and T just said "don't".
so I wrote down my foods and cals for the day and it was a high number (1550 cals) and I got a little freakish and just took laxs for the 1st time in a long time.
so now its like... aw crap.
Literally, crap.
Friday, January 28, 2011
barf'n beauty
Sick.
Some sorta flu. Bug. Stomach distress.
Don't wanna eat.
Can't eat without losing it.
Dinner? Think I'll pass.
I <3 U flu.
Homework for you: Look up Audrey Tautou, if you haven't before. She's a true beauty.
Some sorta flu. Bug. Stomach distress.
Don't wanna eat.
Can't eat without losing it.
Dinner? Think I'll pass.
I <3 U flu.
Homework for you: Look up Audrey Tautou, if you haven't before. She's a true beauty.
Tuesday, January 4, 2011
starve. eat. repeat.
Ya know how you'll do "good" for a few days, maybe a week or two? Then suddenly, you pull a chair up to the pantry and start shoveling it in like a person possessed. Then there's that panic of - how do I get it out? Laxatives aren't practical, the calories are still in. Puking seems reasonable, but it's loud and there are people home. You wander the house aimlessly, thinking maybe I could take a mid-day shower, that would cover the noise... or walk to a secluded park and... well... Then give up, curl in bed and wonder why you didn't just go to bed before the binge started.
Lather. Rinse. Repeat.
Starve. Eat. Repeat.
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Good to hear from you Vee. Twas afraid I'd lost track of you during my blogging hiatus!
Lather. Rinse. Repeat.
Starve. Eat. Repeat.
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Good to hear from you Vee. Twas afraid I'd lost track of you during my blogging hiatus!
Monday, January 3, 2011
done!
The holidays? Done.
Forced family eating? Done.
Back on track? Done. Done. Done!
So far today: 1 c. soy milk, 1 stick gum, 1 sf mint, 1 granola bar, 16 oz. cola. ~288 cals.
Know what I'm liking?
SHAPE magazine
Thin documentary
Apples
Vaseline Intensive Rescue Moisture Locking Lotion
Bundling up, walking at night in freezing cold temps
Totally.
My weight?
Hanging around 200
But losing those inches
My routine?
AM - push ups, squats, stretching
During day - as active as possible
PM - nighttime walks, little 5 or 10 lb weight lifting
Need to do more.
Do more.
Consume less.
Burn more.
Lose more.
Overall, gain more.
But be half of what I am.
I'm serious about that Vaseline Lotion. Not to sound like an infomercial, but it's really superb stuff.
Forced family eating? Done.
Back on track? Done. Done. Done!
So far today: 1 c. soy milk, 1 stick gum, 1 sf mint, 1 granola bar, 16 oz. cola. ~288 cals.
Know what I'm liking?
SHAPE magazine
Thin documentary
Apples
Vaseline Intensive Rescue Moisture Locking Lotion
Bundling up, walking at night in freezing cold temps
Totally.
My weight?
Hanging around 200
But losing those inches
My routine?
AM - push ups, squats, stretching
During day - as active as possible
PM - nighttime walks, little 5 or 10 lb weight lifting
Need to do more.
Do more.
Consume less.
Burn more.
Lose more.
Overall, gain more.
But be half of what I am.
I'm serious about that Vaseline Lotion. Not to sound like an infomercial, but it's really superb stuff.
Tuesday, November 23, 2010
Sunday, October 17, 2010
dream.... nightmare?
Had a dream last night that I'd gone out for a ride on my bike. I was far away from home when the pedaling got difficult. I looked down at my bike and saw that it was collapsing in on itself. My weight was too much for the bike. I sat down on the curb next to my bike, trying to unbind and twist the metal back into shape when a man walking past saw me. He came over, looked at the bike, laughed, and... I woke up.
I have been eating crazy much and crazy bad (mostly sugar) for the last two days.
Euk.
I have been eating crazy much and crazy bad (mostly sugar) for the last two days.
Euk.
Saturday, October 16, 2010
a different sort of post
My normally slow life has picked up speed and is trotting along at an unsettling quick pace. Meanwhile, my brain is clomping along and my knees are crick-creaking and my feet thump-thumping and I just can't keep up.
And it's all a mess. And it's all too much therapy and too much pressure for anti-depressants, anti-anxieties, anti-idontgiveadamns. Me? OCD? Not at all. Please don't medicate me for that. Depression? Don't we all have that? eh...
I've stopped running now. I'm sitting on the couch with a bag of chips between my knees, moving fist to face on repeat. Sitting there, watching my normally slow life whiz past faster than I can process it.
Coax myself to my feet, take a cautious step and crumple into a heap on the floor. Can't get up, too heavy. My creaky knees won't support me. Take a fork and knife and eat and eat until I've eaten myself away.
Save the heart for last, it's the tastiest bit.
And it's all a mess. And it's all too much therapy and too much pressure for anti-depressants, anti-anxieties, anti-idontgiveadamns. Me? OCD? Not at all. Please don't medicate me for that. Depression? Don't we all have that? eh...
I've stopped running now. I'm sitting on the couch with a bag of chips between my knees, moving fist to face on repeat. Sitting there, watching my normally slow life whiz past faster than I can process it.
Coax myself to my feet, take a cautious step and crumple into a heap on the floor. Can't get up, too heavy. My creaky knees won't support me. Take a fork and knife and eat and eat until I've eaten myself away.
Save the heart for last, it's the tastiest bit.
Monday, October 11, 2010
Eating
Food.
A long, long time ago I made the choice to eat LESS. Then that spiraled out of control and soon I was eating NONE. Then I lost many, many pounds; very, very fast. Then, still without control, I was eating ALL. All the pounds came back and brought their friends with them.
In those periods of NONE and ALL, I felt terribly sick, achy, shaky, depressed, mentally slow & dumb, etc.
But in the times of LESS, I felt comparatively more energized, more focused, more mentally stable. And, because of the consistency and quality of what I did eat, I lost more weight.
Here is an example of a day of LESS for me:
Breakfast: 1/3 cup oatmeal & 4 Tablespoons oat bran cooked. 1 cup milk. Sometimes a few berries. (250-275 calories)
1 Calcium Citrate tablet
1 Emergen-C drink packet, good for vitamin C and B vitamins (usually 25 calories)
Lunch: 200-400 calories of food, like a sandwich or a cup of soup or a meal bar or a small portion of leftovers, with salad or carrots and low-cal fruit.
1 Multivitamin tablet with 18mg iron
Dinner: up to 400 calories of food, usually a protein and vegetable dish - go easy on the pasta/grains.
(optional) 1 Calcium Citrate tablet
Snack: only if strongly craving, at the end of the day have something sweet, up to 210 calories.
Drinks: Emergen-C drink, several glasses of water, herbal teas, diet soda (sparingly) and other calorie free drinks.
Extras: Gum, hard candies, mints.
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This is what works for me. Granted, I have had periods of time where nothing is within my control (either gaining nonstop or losing way fast) and then I have highly controlled times when I still manage to fail to lose weight. It is not as though I am anywhere near skinny yet, so no telling how good this advice really is... All I know is I'm lost a solid 14 pounds and though it's been slow (3 months for 14 lbs), it has stayed off, and in the meantime I haven't become a dizzy imp, with a starved brain. So I guess it's worth it.
A long, long time ago I made the choice to eat LESS. Then that spiraled out of control and soon I was eating NONE. Then I lost many, many pounds; very, very fast. Then, still without control, I was eating ALL. All the pounds came back and brought their friends with them.
In those periods of NONE and ALL, I felt terribly sick, achy, shaky, depressed, mentally slow & dumb, etc.
But in the times of LESS, I felt comparatively more energized, more focused, more mentally stable. And, because of the consistency and quality of what I did eat, I lost more weight.
Here is an example of a day of LESS for me:
Breakfast: 1/3 cup oatmeal & 4 Tablespoons oat bran cooked. 1 cup milk. Sometimes a few berries. (250-275 calories)
1 Calcium Citrate tablet
1 Emergen-C drink packet, good for vitamin C and B vitamins (usually 25 calories)
Lunch: 200-400 calories of food, like a sandwich or a cup of soup or a meal bar or a small portion of leftovers, with salad or carrots and low-cal fruit.
1 Multivitamin tablet with 18mg iron
Dinner: up to 400 calories of food, usually a protein and vegetable dish - go easy on the pasta/grains.
(optional) 1 Calcium Citrate tablet
Snack: only if strongly craving, at the end of the day have something sweet, up to 210 calories.
Drinks: Emergen-C drink, several glasses of water, herbal teas, diet soda (sparingly) and other calorie free drinks.
Extras: Gum, hard candies, mints.
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This is what works for me. Granted, I have had periods of time where nothing is within my control (either gaining nonstop or losing way fast) and then I have highly controlled times when I still manage to fail to lose weight. It is not as though I am anywhere near skinny yet, so no telling how good this advice really is... All I know is I'm lost a solid 14 pounds and though it's been slow (3 months for 14 lbs), it has stayed off, and in the meantime I haven't become a dizzy imp, with a starved brain. So I guess it's worth it.
Friday, October 8, 2010
brief stats post
Just a quick update - hard finding blog time lately...
July 1st -
222 pounds
Waist 43
Hip 49
Bum 47
Bust 42
Arm 15
Thigh 26.5
Shin 16.5
October 1st -
207 pounds
Waist 40
Hip 46.5
Bum 45
Bust 40.5
Arm 15
Thigh 26
Shin 15
Total Pounds Lost: 15
Total Inches Lost: ~10
BMI: 30.6
Starting BMI was: 32.8
July 1st -
222 pounds
Waist 43
Hip 49
Bum 47
Bust 42
Arm 15
Thigh 26.5
Shin 16.5
October 1st -
207 pounds
Waist 40
Hip 46.5
Bum 45
Bust 40.5
Arm 15
Thigh 26
Shin 15
Total Pounds Lost: 15
Total Inches Lost: ~10
BMI: 30.6
Starting BMI was: 32.8
Wednesday, September 22, 2010
Fave song: Big isn't beautiful
Don't know why I'm so hooked on this song.
There's a video on YouTube if you haven't seen/heard it. A couple lines missing in this version, but, eh.
King Adora - Big Isn't Beautiful
Just love it.
I want to feel my bones on your bones, yea.
I wish I had a body to die for, skinny is sexy, big isn't beautiful.
There's a video on YouTube if you haven't seen/heard it. A couple lines missing in this version, but, eh.
King Adora - Big Isn't Beautiful
Just love it.
I want to feel my bones on your bones, yea.
I wish I had a body to die for, skinny is sexy, big isn't beautiful.
Invincible Ghosts.
Thanks for all the sweet comments on my last post (more than a week ago, doh!) I was a bit pissed at the "friend" for a while, but then used her words as fuel to lose more!
I've had sporadic gains here and there, so it's hard to say how much I've really lost this week (or month, even). But I can confidently say I've lost 2-3 lbs this week and about 9 lbs since the first week of August. I think tomorrow will show a devastating gain since I ate triple the calories today than I've been eating... I know my period is coming, so the cravings will be a problem as usual.
I saw a wonder woman today. She was dressed nicely, a little cool for September. I was loitering near a store :) and she was entering the store so I only briefly saw her. I noticed first that she was wearing a light dress for such a chilly day. Then I noticed her skinny ankles wrapped in strappy sandals. I did the smile-nod courtesy thing as she passed by me and I saw all at once - the visible ribs about her chest/upper body, the tiny arms and protruding shoulders, the bold cheekbones, the prominent collar bones. She smiled back and then she was gone.
It was all at once beautiful and horrifying and hilarious. I want to be very thin, but I don't want to be skeletal. At what point does that happen? When I get to "thin" will I be able to stop before "skeletal"? Will I be able to tell the difference any more? The funny part - I'm standing outside in a sweatshirt and jeans surrounded by a 100lbs worth of fat and I'm cold. This thin little thing sweeps across the parking lot in sandals and sundress and no fat to speak of and doesn't seem to notice. Impenetrable. Invincible. Ghost.
Where do you all stand? What's your goal, to be thin/skinny/tiny/slender or to be a skeleton/ghost/ethereal being? Opinions welcome, no harsh (or individualized) judgments allowed.
I've had sporadic gains here and there, so it's hard to say how much I've really lost this week (or month, even). But I can confidently say I've lost 2-3 lbs this week and about 9 lbs since the first week of August. I think tomorrow will show a devastating gain since I ate triple the calories today than I've been eating... I know my period is coming, so the cravings will be a problem as usual.
I saw a wonder woman today. She was dressed nicely, a little cool for September. I was loitering near a store :) and she was entering the store so I only briefly saw her. I noticed first that she was wearing a light dress for such a chilly day. Then I noticed her skinny ankles wrapped in strappy sandals. I did the smile-nod courtesy thing as she passed by me and I saw all at once - the visible ribs about her chest/upper body, the tiny arms and protruding shoulders, the bold cheekbones, the prominent collar bones. She smiled back and then she was gone.
It was all at once beautiful and horrifying and hilarious. I want to be very thin, but I don't want to be skeletal. At what point does that happen? When I get to "thin" will I be able to stop before "skeletal"? Will I be able to tell the difference any more? The funny part - I'm standing outside in a sweatshirt and jeans surrounded by a 100lbs worth of fat and I'm cold. This thin little thing sweeps across the parking lot in sandals and sundress and no fat to speak of and doesn't seem to notice. Impenetrable. Invincible. Ghost.
Where do you all stand? What's your goal, to be thin/skinny/tiny/slender or to be a skeleton/ghost/ethereal being? Opinions welcome, no harsh (or individualized) judgments allowed.
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