What do you all think of my new blog layout? Is the text easy enough to read?
Today the family unexpectedly went out to eat. I had cereal and fruit in the morning, then the big dinner. Calories are 680 for dinner + 150 for fruit + 300 for cereal and milk = 1130 total.
I'm going to go eat a massive salad that will add about 140 plus a bit more fruit for 200.
So assume ~1500 for the day. Not bad. It's gonna be terrible this week, going on holiday. But I think the exercise and walking about will balance whatever I eat. I'll keep a log and let you all know how it goes when I get back.
I posted a couple days ago that I'm going virtually scale-free. I keep almost weighing just out of habit! My next scale day is July 15th. I'm excited to see if this works - if I work harder to make a bigger difference on the scale, by not seeing it stand stagnate, stuck at the same number every day. *fingers crossed* that my number will be different AND LOWER! At the end of July!
Here's some more stats, just for the heck of it:
Clothing sizes (US):
Pants/Jeans - US size 20
Shirts - 2XL
Weight - about 220
And the goals that go with them:
Jeans - size 12 or less. It would be amazing to be a single digit size!
Shirts - size M
Weight - 150 or less
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Other thing:
I read a book recently that was pretty bizarre, and I think pretty good. It's called "Mercy Unbound" by Kim Antieau. Basically Mercy is a very well rounded, intelligent girl who is turning into an angel. She thus does not eat, because angels don't need to eat.
That's it for now, I'll be back on to write more and read/comment on all your blogs in a week and a half!
Monday, July 5, 2010
Sunday, July 4, 2010
need a little accountability
I'm alone in the house for the next few hours.
Usually I would use this unmonitored time to methodically eat my way through the kitchen. Sometimes I would follow this with a nice, long vomit.
So for the moment, I'm just going to list what I've eaten so far today - with the hope it'll stop me, before I start!
Woke late, first meal:
18 blueberries
4 medium sized strawberries
PB&J
1.5 c. lettuce w/ spicy brown mustard
1/4 orange
1 quart water with a Benefiber Orange packet
Calories: 530
Second meal:
1 veggie burger w/white bun
salad w/ 1 tablespoon dressing
3 oz. carrots
0.5 c. blueberries
Calories: 360
Total so far: 890 calories
After typing and adding all this, I've decided to eat some popcorn later on and bring it up to an even 1000 calories. I have also thought of a better use of my alone time... exercise!
I'm going to pop in a DVD. Then later clean up around the house.
P.S. Thanks Falling_Starlight for your comment! Good to know I'm not the only self-conscious person out there trying to exercise! My family also makes crude comments about strangers on appearances, fat/skinny, stupid, etc.
**Update**
I had an indulgent bowl of popcorn with a little oil and some salt, then a bowl of cereal with milk. This brings my total calories for the day to approximately 1520. I'm very happy with that. Didn't go on a full-out binge, and I exercised a wee bit. At my size, I could lose weight eating that much.
The exercise attempt was... haha... yeahhh...
I spent more time getting the plastic wrap and security device stickers off the DVD than I spent using it! But workout dance DVDs are fun! I enjoyed the few minutes I did. Just got wheezy and had to stop.
Usually I would use this unmonitored time to methodically eat my way through the kitchen. Sometimes I would follow this with a nice, long vomit.
So for the moment, I'm just going to list what I've eaten so far today - with the hope it'll stop me, before I start!
Woke late, first meal:
18 blueberries
4 medium sized strawberries
PB&J
1.5 c. lettuce w/ spicy brown mustard
1/4 orange
1 quart water with a Benefiber Orange packet
Calories: 530
Second meal:
1 veggie burger w/white bun
salad w/ 1 tablespoon dressing
3 oz. carrots
0.5 c. blueberries
Calories: 360
Total so far: 890 calories
After typing and adding all this, I've decided to eat some popcorn later on and bring it up to an even 1000 calories. I have also thought of a better use of my alone time... exercise!
I'm going to pop in a DVD. Then later clean up around the house.
P.S. Thanks Falling_Starlight for your comment! Good to know I'm not the only self-conscious person out there trying to exercise! My family also makes crude comments about strangers on appearances, fat/skinny, stupid, etc.
**Update**
I had an indulgent bowl of popcorn with a little oil and some salt, then a bowl of cereal with milk. This brings my total calories for the day to approximately 1520. I'm very happy with that. Didn't go on a full-out binge, and I exercised a wee bit. At my size, I could lose weight eating that much.
The exercise attempt was... haha... yeahhh...
I spent more time getting the plastic wrap and security device stickers off the DVD than I spent using it! But workout dance DVDs are fun! I enjoyed the few minutes I did. Just got wheezy and had to stop.
Saturday, July 3, 2010
At-home and No-equipment Exercise
I was reading Ana's Girl's blog posts from June. (I'm behind on all your blogs!)
Some things she'd written reminded me of isometric exercises, and of at-home-no-equipment exercises. So here's some links.
Isometric Exercise tutorial
Shape's Workout links page
Bunch of info about muscle groups, simple exercises, callisthenics right HERE.
Just about every magazine geared towards women has a website with a fitness/exercise section.
Some things she'd written reminded me of isometric exercises, and of at-home-no-equipment exercises. So here's some links.
Isometric Exercise tutorial
Shape's Workout links page
Bunch of info about muscle groups, simple exercises, callisthenics right HERE.
Just about every magazine geared towards women has a website with a fitness/exercise section.
i feel fat... but optimistic
I feel fat.
I can't see my toes. Literally.
I have NO clothes that look even halfway good on me.
It's freakin' summer and I'm still freakin' fat.
So... the plan:
I weighed/measured on the 1st. I'll do it again on the 15th and again on the 31st. And that's it. On no other day shall I step onto the scale. I'm a bit of a scale junkie, so I'm wagering that by taking the scale away, I will work harder to see a bigger difference from the 1st to mid-July and then to the end of the month.
THE FAT STATS:
222 lbs.
(all measurements in inches at widest parts)
42 bust
43 waist
49 hip
47 butt
15 upper arm
26.5 per thigh
16.25 per mid-shin
6.5 wrist
THE MEANS:
No starvation. But also no high calorie days. Keep calories above 1200 but below 1600. Eat somewhat intuitively, but balance calorie consumption with exercise. Spend less time sitting, more time moving. Get enough sleep per night. And plenty to drink. Limit sodium and cut off caffeine by 4pm. Write what I eat, how many calories. Be mindful ~ pay attention to what I'm eating as I'm having it, and also be sure I'm not emotional-eating. Ask, "is it worth the calories?" (It's usually not).
A METHOD THAT WORKS FOR ME:
I've found that for me, thinking of calories in terms of cost helps. Example: 3 strawberries would cost me 25 calories out of 1400 for the day. Is it worth it? Definitely. Whereas a portion of fries would cost 400 calories, a big chunk of my daily expenditures! Not worth the cost at all!
Also going with the cost thing, I can search for the bargains. 3 strawberries for 25 calories are packed with flavor and nutrients, but won't fill me up. French Fries count as a starchy vegetable, but come with a bunch of fat and oil and salt. Might satiate my hunger at the moment, but I'm sure to be hungry later. For the price of the fries I could have the strawberries plus a giant veggie salad without dressing, air popped corn and a cup of soup!
EXERCISE:
I hate public exercising - I always feel soooo self conscious. Any one else feel that way?
This Summer I am going to exercise by: doing cardio and strength training in a community center/gym, walk around the neighborhood, find and ride a bike, and finally unwrap and use the workout DVDs I bought ages ago.
I plan/hope to do the gym three times a week (if I can get a ride, it's too far/ too many busy streets to walk) maybe work out at the gym MWF. And then 2-3 other days do light activity like walking, DVDs, biking, and other at home exercises. One day will be a total rest day. (but not a binge eat day!)
I would like to try some form of yoga.
I can't see my toes. Literally.
I have NO clothes that look even halfway good on me.
It's freakin' summer and I'm still freakin' fat.
So... the plan:
I weighed/measured on the 1st. I'll do it again on the 15th and again on the 31st. And that's it. On no other day shall I step onto the scale. I'm a bit of a scale junkie, so I'm wagering that by taking the scale away, I will work harder to see a bigger difference from the 1st to mid-July and then to the end of the month.
THE FAT STATS:
222 lbs.
(all measurements in inches at widest parts)
42 bust
43 waist
49 hip
47 butt
15 upper arm
26.5 per thigh
16.25 per mid-shin
6.5 wrist
THE MEANS:
No starvation. But also no high calorie days. Keep calories above 1200 but below 1600. Eat somewhat intuitively, but balance calorie consumption with exercise. Spend less time sitting, more time moving. Get enough sleep per night. And plenty to drink. Limit sodium and cut off caffeine by 4pm. Write what I eat, how many calories. Be mindful ~ pay attention to what I'm eating as I'm having it, and also be sure I'm not emotional-eating. Ask, "is it worth the calories?" (It's usually not).
A METHOD THAT WORKS FOR ME:
I've found that for me, thinking of calories in terms of cost helps. Example: 3 strawberries would cost me 25 calories out of 1400 for the day. Is it worth it? Definitely. Whereas a portion of fries would cost 400 calories, a big chunk of my daily expenditures! Not worth the cost at all!
Also going with the cost thing, I can search for the bargains. 3 strawberries for 25 calories are packed with flavor and nutrients, but won't fill me up. French Fries count as a starchy vegetable, but come with a bunch of fat and oil and salt. Might satiate my hunger at the moment, but I'm sure to be hungry later. For the price of the fries I could have the strawberries plus a giant veggie salad without dressing, air popped corn and a cup of soup!
EXERCISE:
I hate public exercising - I always feel soooo self conscious. Any one else feel that way?
This Summer I am going to exercise by: doing cardio and strength training in a community center/gym, walk around the neighborhood, find and ride a bike, and finally unwrap and use the workout DVDs I bought ages ago.
I plan/hope to do the gym three times a week (if I can get a ride, it's too far/ too many busy streets to walk) maybe work out at the gym MWF. And then 2-3 other days do light activity like walking, DVDs, biking, and other at home exercises. One day will be a total rest day. (but not a binge eat day!)
I would like to try some form of yoga.
Monday, May 31, 2010
any ideas?
1st of June tomorrow and I've no weight loss related plans or goals. What are ya'll doing in June?
Tuesday, May 25, 2010
57 tips
(When you want to eat but "shouldn't")
Tips:
Tips:
- imagine what you'll look like at your goal
- make a to-do list
- clean out files, or school papers, or a desk, or junk drawer
- plan a dream trip or romantic encounter -- even if it's not practical
- leave the house -- go for a non-exercise walk or somewhere without food
- daydream
- read a book
- exercise (only if not fatigued or dizzy, etc)
- take a short nap
- drink water. add lemon or drink tea if craving no calorie/sodium flavor.
- if it's a late night craving -- go to bed. make a rule that you cannot leave the bed.
- blog publicly or journal privately
- find a hobby - i like beading, it's cheap, easy, can be mindless, and might make something pretty!
- get paper, glue and magazines. make a collage.
- do your nails
- clean something dirty -- toilet, a pets cage
- write a letter to your hunger/stomach
- surf the web
- make and remake weight goals
- rub lotion over entire body
- brush your teeth
- chew gum -- but only if it doesn't make cravings worse!
- take a few deep breaths
- watch some television
- play with a pet
- go someplace fun where food isn't allowed (library, museum)
- look at own pics at highest weight
- take a shower
- try a new hairstyle or makeup tip
- count coins - depending how many you have it may take a while, and filthy coins leave fingers smelling gross and metallic
- do a few sit-ups or squats
- turn on some music and dance a bit
- call a friend
- write about a recent accomplishment, refer to it when feeling down, or bingey
- arrange photos in an album (real or online) or scrapbook
- go thru a old yearbook and look at the people who "were better"
- play a board game or sport with kids (siblings, nephew/niece) or friends
- tear paper into little bits, the smaller the bits the better. count the bits.
- try on clothes, a swimsuit
- wash your car, if you have one
- take a warm bath
- start a holiday/birthday shopping list
- check your email, usual website haunts
- create a mantra
- start a project
- do homework, or study any topic - even if not in school
- try meditation
- play solitaire
- sew a throw pillow - especially good if you do not already know how to sew!
- spritz on a body mist or light scented candles
- progressive relaxation -- tighten and release muscles
- organize big things (closet, room) or small things (knickknacks, bookshelf)
- dust a room, or a house!
- do gardening, sweeping, or other outside work
- stretch
- get crayons and a coloring book...
- fix something that is broken
fat stats : )
As of today...
Measurements in inches:
Waist - 43
Hip - 49
Thighs - 46
1 Thigh - 29
Chest - 43
Upper Arm - ~15-16
Weight.... uhhh.... let's put this in the silliest terms.
100,607 grams
0.1006 ton
kay?
Measurements in inches:
Waist - 43
Hip - 49
Thighs - 46
1 Thigh - 29
Chest - 43
Upper Arm - ~15-16
Weight.... uhhh.... let's put this in the silliest terms.
100,607 grams
0.1006 ton
kay?
back and fatter than ever!
It's been a long time, huh? I'm back to the weight I was when I first started this blog. Depressing... I'm trying a new angle on this weight loss thing. Healthy eating and exercise. riiiight....
Here's the logic: I'm HUGE. I live in a family of people who like to eat big quantities, often. We're all vegetarians....so me using that as an excuse....it just wouldn't work. I've gotten cornered into therapy -- with a guy who happens to have ed training... ummm coincidence? or maybe paranoia on my part. :(
I'm still counting calories. Getting about 1200 per day + a wee bit of exercise. Figure I'll up the exercise and see if I can lose some. Seems only time I "lose" weight is day after laxies. And that's not really lost weight, ya know?
So PLAN? Honestly...I dunno. Guess I'll try to steal a moment to log on now and then and post... weight? measurements? Gosh, haven't measured myself in forever! I did get some calipers a.k.a torture devices tho. So I'll break out the calipers, measuring tape, scales and notebooks and bmi charts and.... post.
Blogs ~ I've been reading Jo's blog and Poker face and a handful of others now and then. Haven't commented - haven't been able to log onto google...stupid lost password... But hey, maybe I'll be able to get a few words in here and there.
Youtube.... anyone watch "those" videos on youtube? Anyone have the experience of someone borrowing your computer... clicking into youtube... and seeing the incriminating "videos recommended for you"?
That's it for now - it's late at night here - so maybe I'll post again in the AM?
Here's the logic: I'm HUGE. I live in a family of people who like to eat big quantities, often. We're all vegetarians....so me using that as an excuse....it just wouldn't work. I've gotten cornered into therapy -- with a guy who happens to have ed training... ummm coincidence? or maybe paranoia on my part. :(
I'm still counting calories. Getting about 1200 per day + a wee bit of exercise. Figure I'll up the exercise and see if I can lose some. Seems only time I "lose" weight is day after laxies. And that's not really lost weight, ya know?
So PLAN? Honestly...I dunno. Guess I'll try to steal a moment to log on now and then and post... weight? measurements? Gosh, haven't measured myself in forever! I did get some calipers a.k.a torture devices tho. So I'll break out the calipers, measuring tape, scales and notebooks and bmi charts and.... post.
Blogs ~ I've been reading Jo's blog and Poker face and a handful of others now and then. Haven't commented - haven't been able to log onto google...stupid lost password... But hey, maybe I'll be able to get a few words in here and there.
Youtube.... anyone watch "those" videos on youtube? Anyone have the experience of someone borrowing your computer... clicking into youtube... and seeing the incriminating "videos recommended for you"?
That's it for now - it's late at night here - so maybe I'll post again in the AM?
Wednesday, January 13, 2010
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