accidentally told my therapist about my "strange eating" habits.... T got a bit stressed out... T happens to be eating disorder specialist in addition to other things...we've discussed ED type things before.....but I've always denied. then today i bring it up. now its like... why the hell did i do that?!? whoops...
so recently... blacked out for like 10 mins and then showered and lost a couple handfuls of hair.
and now... cause i blabbed, I'm to keep a food log and bring it in. I told T... I said "I'll lie on it" and T just said "don't".
so I wrote down my foods and cals for the day and it was a high number (1550 cals) and I got a little freakish and just took laxs for the 1st time in a long time.
so now its like... aw crap.