So let's say today hasn't gone well. I HAVE NO SELF CONTROL. I am an impulsive bitch. I ate a lovely salad with some protein, and felt satisfied. But then I went and looked for something else to eat. And I found potato chips. dammit I haven't had chips in...a long time. And I wanted them. And I gave in. Damn. So i retroactively calculated the calories, it comes to about 1100. It's 2pm, and that estimate leaves me 400 for dinner. (the reason that's a problem is that dinner is a sit down with family thing, and regular portions of dinner run about 500-700 calories.)
As a child i was nicknamed "garbage can" because I was pressured by parents to eat all that remained of dinner, so there would be no pesky leftovers. And...I still eat like that. I will eat until there is nothing left. Even if i'm not hungry, or if i don't want to eat it, or if it doesn't even taste good...I will eat until it is gone. I'm a little obsessive about things too, so that doesn't help. So now, I've just got to get obsessive about weight loss.
Let's talk about exercise. I am physically unfit. I wasnt' very active as a kid (read: video games) and that's followed me into adult life. hmmm...
I can tolerate:
I have never done:
cardio machines (treadmill, elliptical)
I have access to a community gym. I live in a gated community so the sidewalks/neighborhood is relatively safe. But i'm horribly self conscious, whenever I go for a walk, i'm convinced the neighbors are staring at me, thinking "there goes that fat chick, waddling down the road". well, maybe not that last part, but I do get super paranoid that people are watching/judging me.
I'm going to go attempt some clumsy form of exercise.